in your bubble.

i'm going kayaking this sunday after badminton. sigh.

so i've been real busy lately. you know, stuff that really reek. I'm not running back.

I hate the fact that we have to resort to silly squabbles since i already have enough on my plate to handle.

Havent been blogging much daily.Another week w/o sleep .Bloodshot eyes which are stinging.

Contact lenses not helping.

All the squabbles becomes smth your prolly not bothered to face.

Hence, you let it be and go on with the flow.

I treat you with respect of someone my age, regard you as a close friend.

But there are times, when i know when to draw the line.I've been keeping quiet for far too long.And all it took, was for one person to tell me about it

before i eventually lost my cool.

i never knew what defeat is.

...

But I was so stressed up that her/his comment perked me up that instant and touched my heart alot. Thank you to whoever you may be :)

Mayhem

have I told you how much I love skinheads? <3

had spring cleaning today. and I had alot of fun. HAHAHA.

like bullying Nabelah. " IM SINGLE! call me" LOLLLLLL!

and make her dance to single ladies. and then making picture movies which were VERY lame.

like making billy chase flies with badminton racket ;P

k now Im laughing typing this post.

so much for us being butterflies who can't even get off the ground :P

anyways, Badminton training tomorrow with skinheads.

I'm gonna practice jumping before this sunday.

My coach's gonna make me do it again. Im sure he is.

I know he likes humiliating me. ERRGH.

I CANT JUMP. I need to learn how to JUMP.

do you know how much I hate JUMPING.

I LOOK HORRIBLE JUMPING! I'll look like a moron who's TOO fat stuck to the ground!

nononononononononono i hate jumping.

:(

D: CRY .

MY FIGHT

yesterday, my brother shaved his eyebrows. Maybe cz he wanted to shave facial hair so badly and they havent grown yet and so, he shaved bits of his eyebrows. LOLLLL! he is in primary Two and now we're all calling him Mr. Wriggles. he cried. I cnt help laughing. it's so funny. wriggly. HAH!

so today we had a talk in school. I got teary when th guy showed th slides.

it was about our malay community. for ever 5000 married couples, 4000 will end up in divorce. And about the 73% of teens may not get islamic education and more stuff about our malay community which I found depressing.

then i realized,

It was my duty.

My father raised me up not to be a coward. I am proud of what he is doing to th society and I want to follow his footsteps. I want to contribute and continue what he is doing. I don't want anybody i know to end up in the statistics i saw today. I want to stand up and make him proud.

he raised me not to be a coward.

he raised me not to be a coward.

he raised me not to be a coward.

i guess i'm very lucky even though I have alot of activities one after another :P

I love you ma and aba.

KISSIE WHO.

There's a wedding dwnstairs on th field. Fairy tale setting with all th roses and stuffz. pretty sekali! but they have thse awful malay singers who shriek and NOT sing. My heads gonna blow. I hate going to weddings like these. IRRITATING. i feel like going down and give them instrumental cds i own. I am so bloody tired and i cnt possibly sleep with all awful people trying so hard to sound GOOD.

I am so so so angry.

they are getting married and they are singing break up songs.

AH GERAM AH.

buat malu aje. dumb la you all.

i will have a wedding with NICE music. like debussy or something.

pening ah.

great, anothr song is starting... PSCHHT!

Aisyah

Happy 20th birthday ! sorry late post i was trying to look for your picture. lucky i saved these before you got married :P

hehe, i pray you get a vvvry fat fat happy baby :)
i love you vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvry much! hearts all over! :D

ash tray

i am feeling a lil light headed. and pretty grossed out.

this is so, so very wrong.

mama: how you nak lose weight asek minum bubble tea aje!

-: tapi tadi i minum don't have bubble dia ape

I am a fifteen year old girl with too much love for everything. Am I the only one who finds it ridicuously amusing when you eat blueberries and your lips and teeth get stained all blue?

Hmmm perhaps so.